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chrystal methidone

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[20 Apr 2003|08:32pm]
tell me a secret... or a joke... or something...
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stolen from celeste [20 Apr 2003|08:11pm]
have you
Cut yourself: yes
Pick your nose: Only in cases of emergency
Lick yourself: haha no
Yell a lot: no
Hate a lot of people: how much is a lot?
Have too many friends: not enough
Want to die: soemtimes
Believe in life after death: Yes.
Go to church: No.
Love school: bot usually
Have a bf/gf: Nopenopenope
Do drugs: No
Wear dark colors: sometimes
Try to be different: no, i just am
Have any piercings: nope, the 1 i had holed up
Break bones a lot: Never broken a bone
Dye your hair: Yes
Shave strange places: trim

---Have you ever----
Kissed someone: Yes.
Killed someone: emotionally
Been raped: no
Smoked: No.
Gotten Drunk: no
Worn rainbow: Yes. :D
Talked on the phone for over 3 hours: yep.
Left the country: yep
Had a party with over 30 people: not yet
Taken nude pictures: no
Stolen something: Yes
Ran away from home: tried to
Burned yourself: Yes. >_< ow
Caught something on fire: Yes.
Cheated on someone: Nope!
Wanted to cheat on someone: nope.
Asked someone out: yessssm
Been dumped: lots of times... thats what my life revolves around
Dumped someone: yes..... :/
Had a dream then the next day it happens: no

Pick One:
Cat/Dog: clogs
White/Black: black
Hot/Cold: cold
Far/Near: near
Water/Land: later
Kiss/Sex: kissex
Online/Phone: phone
Beer/Book: book
Novel/Poetry: both, really
Music/Silence: music!
--Dream Mate--
Short/Long Hair: Either, really.
Preppy/Dorky/Druggie: any
Freckles/No Freckles: i dono
Hair Color: Any.
Hat/No hat: no hat
Fat/Thin: Either. :P
Makeup/No Makeup: no makeup... but makeup isn't that bad
Dressy/Casual: either
Holding hands/Holding 'other body parts': both :D

~LAST PERSON~
You Touched: myself
You Talked to: carah
You Hugged: i dunno
You Kissed: joe... a long long long time ago
You Instant messaged: carah
You Yelled At: i dono
Who Broke Your Heart: scott

~ARE YOU~
Understanding: depends
Open-minded: yup
Arrogant: I hope not.
Insecure: Yes. ;_;
Interesting: yes
Hungry: YES. *munch*
Smart: i dono
Moody: Very.
Childish: at times.
Independent: i dono
Hard working: hah, hahahaha
Organized: hahahahahahah
Healthy: No
Emotionally Stable: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Shy: Yes.
Difficult: No, I don't think so
Attractive: no
Bored Easily: ya
Messy: Yessy
Thirsty: no
Responsible: ohhhhh no
Obsessed: bunnies
Angry: sometimes
Sad: a lot
Happy: not usually
Trusting: I hope...
Ill: like a pill!
Talkative: Depends on who i'm talking to
Legal: barely!
Original: i like to think so.
Ignored: yessir
Reliable: yes
Self-disciplined: i guess
Sleepy: Yesss
Lonely: very.
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me [13 Apr 2003|06:33pm]



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[11 Apr 2003|01:53am]
robert is such a self centered asshole
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Hurting distro [03 Apr 2003|12:15am]
i added some new zines to the catolouge! http://www.angelfire.com/zine2/hurtingdistro
also, if anyone who has a distro would like to trade links, let me know, and we will!
also, i'm always looking for new items to add to the catolouge ;)
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and you know... [23 Mar 2003|07:37pm]
besides, he has a girlfriend.
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cut [18 Mar 2003|12:06pm]
it's out now and available through hurting distro ( http://www.angelfire.com/zine2/hurtingdistro )
its all stories about cutting. it IS triggering.
its 1.00 plus shipping (see site), or 50 cents if you contributed or run a distro. comment if you need more info!
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ignore this [13 Mar 2003|11:17am]
I know what youre thinking. People tell me that every day. I’m a fag and I’m going to burn in hell. At one point, I believed that, you guys made me belive I was a sinner and an abomination, but now I finally think for myself. Its still hard when people call me names though.
I realized I was gay in 8th grade when I was 12. I came out to my mother a month later and she said I was confused, but I knew. She told my dad that night and he didn’t say anything about it. Around that time I was severely suicidal and was put into a mental hospital. Part of the reason I was suicidal was that I was tortured at school. I hadn’t come out to anyone yet, but they sort of knew already, and they hated me for it. The other reasons were lonliness, depression and other things. I had family therapy once a week, which really helped my coming out process. I loved my parents very dear and was afraid they would disown me. In therapy they told me they loved me no matter what. I’m their son. I know I’m lucky for this. People I know have had parents disown them, ignore them, abuse them, even throw them out of the house for being gay.
Family and close friends are hard enough to come out to, but to everyone at school is very hard. One day, at craig middle school word got around that I was gay. A boy walked up to me, punched me in the stomach, and as I was lying on the ground barely breathing he said “I knew you were a faggot.” I got so many name calls that day. At the end of the day I was crying so much in the hall. A counselor walked up to me and asked what happened. I told her and she said “what will we do on monmday when you have to come back to school?” I said “I’m not coming back” and I didn’t.
I ended up at belzer which was much better. After a few weeks of everyone asking me if I was gay, I got sick of telling a lie and I said yes. I felt free and out of my cage. I didn’t have to pretend any more. I didn’t have to pretend to have a crush on any girls or anything. I was out.
Of course, some people had problems, but the problems were dealt with. I still get the names and the looks. People still come up to me and say I should find jesus, I tell them I have. It doesent bother me as mucgh anymore. I can handle someone calling me a fag, but everytime I hear it, I see the fragile and brittle boy I used to be who couldn’t take it, and I know theres so many out there who cant hear that word without wanting to die. A part of me is still with them.

Things not to say to a gay person
“when did you decide to become gay?” nobody decided to become gay. I never woke up one morning and said “oh, I think I’ll be gay from now on, so I can make everyone hate me.”
“who’s the boy and who’s the girl in your relationship” this question is just lame, usually I answer it saying “incase you haven’t noticed, we’re both boys”
“you don’t act gay” “acting” gay is a stereotypical standard and it has nothing to do with your sexuality
“don’t touch me!” a lot of people assume that gay people are attracted to all people who are the same sex as them- not true! We have our types just like any other people.
“do you know (insert name of another gay person here)” no… I don’t know them. Gay people don’t have a type of underground system where everyone knows everyone
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Andre the platypus and i [08 Mar 2003|02:44pm]
[ mood | sad ]

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hey! [09 Feb 2003|11:23pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

this journal is mostly friends only. i love new friends though :) add me and i'll add you back, also, please fill out some of the polls below so i can get to know ya better :)
xo. jon

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impeach bush!!!! [05 Feb 2003|06:40am]
http://www.votetoimpeach.org/

this is serious!!!!
oh, and srry if youve seen it already
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fill me up [02 Feb 2003|04:36pm]
this poll is to help me make friends groups. its crucial that you fill it out.

are you a zinester?

yes
21(39.6%)
no
32(60.4%)

are you a penpal of mine?

yes
10(17.9%)
no
46(82.1%)

are you GLBT? (gay lesbian bi trans)

yes
33(58.9%)
no
23(41.1%)

do youy/have you self mutilate?

yes
35(61.4%)
no
22(38.6%)

do you live in indiana?

yes
12(21.4%)
no
44(78.6%)

are ya male or female

male
16(28.6%)
female
40(71.4%)

would you like to do more polls in my lj?

yup
51(92.7%)
no
4(7.3%)

would you like to read random IM's i find amusing?

sure, why not?
51(91.1%)
no
5(8.9%)
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say goodbye. i wont cry. old friend. [28 Jan 2003|11:49pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Poll #96689 shinny

ask me any question

do my polls annoy you?

nope, i enjoy them
6(85.7%)
no. but i'm not a big fan of polls
1(14.3%)
yes, please stop doing them
0(0.0%)


well, i saw "its a guy thing" today. prettyfunny.
my youth activist club was accepted andnow itsbein formed! yay! i made a difference. i get to be all political and forget about all the boys who have rejected me.
i ordered lots of zines today. rock star w/ purses will be in my distro soon, you should all get it, its great ;)
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yoyo :) [27 Jan 2003|07:46pm]
[ mood | bored ]

what was a rumor that was spread about you once?

if you could make up a NEW word, what would it be and what would it mean?

whats your favorite word? anyreason why?

will you send me some bracelets in the mail? i will love you forever!!!!!

sure :D
7(50.0%)
sorry, but no.
7(50.0%)
i would never send YOU bracelets
0(0.0%)
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[27 Jan 2003|01:26am]
[ mood | restless ]

dollar_fun
in this community, we will monthly do a "secret santa" like thing with all members. except all gifts must be bought at a dollar store. please only apply if interested ;)
this is a closed community

please fill out the survey if interested and e-mail to riotgrrrlboi@hotmail.com

Livejournal name:
name, address:
would you have any problems sending the gifts?:
any other information:

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[26 Jan 2003|12:54pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

my pic -

insert lyric here :)

do you live in indiana?

yes
1(4.8%)
no
20(95.2%)

are you a girl/woman/chick/grrrl

yes
14(66.7%)
no
7(33.3%)

<http://my.ayokay.com/delz/images/454041.jpg> hot or not? 1=ugly 10=hott

Mean: 7.05 Median: 7 Std. Dev 2.28
1
1(5.3%)
2
0(0.0%)
3
0(0.0%)
4
1(5.3%)
5
2(10.5%)
6
4(21.1%)
7
2(10.5%)
8
3(15.8%)
9
3(15.8%)
10
3(15.8%)
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[20 Jan 2003|10:54am]
[ mood | awake ]

dont worry, only i can see it ;)
only check ONE!!!

Poll #93805 do me

would you ever do me?

*drools* yup
1(6.7%)
yesh, most likely
5(33.3%)
maybe
4(26.7%)
uh... no
3(20.0%)
fuck no
1(6.7%)
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[19 Jan 2003|08:23pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Poll #93618 bored

whats your favorite thing about yourself?

who do you love?

what are you wearing

give me a compliment

AIM s/n ?

a/s/l ? LIEK OMG! RAWK! x_o

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[19 Jan 2003|07:32pm]
[ mood | confused ]

i went on a date today witha super guy. we had great conversation and clicked, at the end of the date i leaned over to kiss him and he said he doesent kiss on the first date, but wantsto see me again. heres a guiz

what would youtell someone who hates all men, but you want them to date you.

do you usually kiss on a first date

usually
3(33.3%)
sometimes
4(44.4%)
rarely
2(22.2%)
never
0(0.0%)

do you know people who NEVER kiss on the first date?

yup
7(77.8%)
no
2(22.2%)
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hurting distro [12 Jan 2003|04:13pm]
[ mood | tired ]

http://www.angelfire.com/zine2/hurtingdistro is my distro.
link it and i will link you, i will also trade paper ads, LMK :)
spread the word, check it out :)

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